Wednesday, November 28, 2012

The Ralization

Once I left high school and all the people that I didn't like there behind me, there wasn't really anything to vlog or vent about anymore. There was no drama, no people that I hate, nothing. Once I graduated and got away, the bloging and vloging became less and less frequent. It was like I fell off the face of the earth. I became calm and relaxed like I wasn't carrying the whole world on my shoulders anymore. It sounds wrong, but it was a huge relief to not have to try so hard to impress my peers and fit in. I can finally rest my head and know for sure that there aren't any demons hiding in the people I know waiting for the perfect moment to pop out. I have cut down my facebook friends from 700 to 147. I don't even really use it anymore, or any other  social network anymore. Honestly, it makes me feel free. For once in my life I feel like I can breath, and maybe even trust again. It was eye opening how much people can hold you back with out you even noticing it. Love Audi <3

Monday, November 26, 2012

Starting Over..

I've decided that I need to start over. Not only do I need a new attitude, but I need a new look, a new set of friends, new hobbies, new everything. I want change. I'm so tired of people treating me the way that they do and I'm tire of the way everyone treats one another. I want to change myself for the better and change the world. I want to start my life over and be happier than I've ever been. I'm going back to blonde, all natural. I'm buying less expensive makeup. I'm dressing in my own crazy way and not following the trends anymore. I've been listening to pumped up songs lately, I've been eating healthier and being myself with my high self-esteem and everything and honestly I'm starting to feel like I can do anything. I don't care what anyone else thinks and all I want to do is sing and do what I love to do. People can't control me anymore. I am beautiful and I am proud of myself and that's all that really matters. My curly hair, my bows, my Disney sweaters and shirts, my obsessions, my embarrassing actions, deal with it. I've been inspired by Ariana Grande, Christina Aguilera, and Mariah Carey. My idols tell me that I need to stay true to myself no matter what. If I love myself others will love me and if they don't FUCK THEM. :) Love Audi <3